I arrived at work tonight to find one of our managers waiting for a coworker and I.  Into the office we were dragged.  I am now under "formal investigation" for an incident which occured two nights ago, a third coworker is as well.  This is being taken "extremely seriously" I really can't discuss it here, but of course, I'll plead my innocence.  On the other side of things, I do see how I could have done things differently, and if I was to do it again, I would have tried a different approach... I still think this is over kill though.  The clients accusing us, video taped us on their cell phones...without our consent.  

We were not advised of our right not to say anything without a union rep present... thankfully our third coworker was and let us know that.  Our executive director will be contacting us as he's spearheading the investigation.  I did speak to one of our union reps this morning.  She told me not to say a word without one of them present.  This is serious.  I can't believe this is happening.  I'm not the kind of person who gets into trouble, and definitely not trouble like this.  

I managed to survive the night, although one client might have seen a couple tears run down my cheek, this after my supervisor told my coworker and I off for something else...he was drunk at least and probably won't remember. 

I had a panic attack when I walked through my door though.  I can't even remember the last time I had a panic attack.  But I picked up the Sophie cat and got through it, I calmed myself down pretty quickly.  I just really, really, really hope this doesn't screw up my registration as a social worker, I don't think it can screw up my new job, unless I lose registration, which I require.  This seriously cannot be that serious though, because nothing really happened!  I wish I could talk about it, but I really, really can't.  Just in case.  

I keep telling myself it doesn't matter, that I'm leaving, that if I can't stay on the casual list so be it.  It's just this horrible feeling sitting on me, telling me that I'm in trouble, just when things were looking up.